So, today is the day. The day my brother took his own life. He hung himself on his bed, with a computer lead. Does it affect me? Everyday. It's not something that just passes. It eases; the pain. He called me on the wednesday and asked to move in. Come the sunday I was sat … Continue reading Happy Death Day
When I close my eyes I see you, Smiling like the child you were, Until away death did steal you Gone in a dark blur. I try to put you in a safe, Locked up in my mind, So you could be a child again, Somewhere death can't find. But thoughts escape, Torment my brain, … Continue reading Sometimes.
So this is my first Daily Prompt: Tremble. I wasn't going to do it but I thought hey why not. Apparently you should always go with your gut so, let's talk about sex baby. I'm not shy in talking about sex recently I'm becoming more shy in the actual bed, buts that's a self-esteem issue. … Continue reading Tremble
Music. It calms and excites. It can change the way you feel. If anyone reads my blog they may notice certain phrases that are familiar. I think in lyrics. Does anybody else do that? I don't mean every sentence I think is lyrical. Just seventy percent of my thoughts have a lyrical reference or remind … Continue reading Wax Lyrical.
"Always borrow money from a pessimist, he will never expect it back." Oscar Wilde "My therapist told me the way to achieve true inner peace is to finish what I start. So far I’ve finished two bags of M&Ms and a chocolate cake. I feel better already." Dave Barry "I asked God for a bike, … Continue reading Things I wish I’d said.
I don't know why I do it, but I over think EVERYTHING. It's habit that is becoming more and more prominent in today's society. Personally I think it may be down to the media. When I'm stoned though I feel level-headed. Everything seems to switch back into proportion like it's my Anti-depressant. I know MJ is … Continue reading In the mind of a stoner.
Or not. I won't pressure you. Why is there such a negative stigma attached to smoking a joint? How do you view it? I have smoked for about two years and recently I've been considering giving up due to family opinions. Why did I start? I was depressed as fuck. My younger brother had hung … Continue reading Pack your bowls, let’s get stoned.
So I'm told. Hope comes from strange places blah blah blah. Personally I have always thought that to be utter ... nonsense, to put it politely. My recent self realization...thing however has begun to make me wonder if there isn't just the teeensiest bit of truth in the happy clappy mumbo jumbo. Maybe some people … Continue reading Everything happens for a reason.
8697 days. Breathing, eating, sleeping but not really living. 23 years of wasted life. Don't get me wrong I have some awesome memories. In the grand scheme of things however I'm a loser baby, so why don't you kill me. I mean when you think of all there is to see, to make, to try … Continue reading Awakening.