Please just let me go. I started a new job which I thought was good. It's a training program so I learn and earn. It's at a pub. I liked the first day or two. The location itself is now tainted . I can't go there without hyperventilating. I think I am genuinely insane. My … Continue reading I’m coming apart at the seams.
So I am almost 24. However I don't think this will bring me more friends. I seem to be unlovable. I honestly don't know if it's me or if it's just the people I mix with. Obviously people drift away over the years. I was homeschooled so I didn't make any friends during high school … Continue reading Nobody likes you when your 23.
via Daily Prompt: Center Today I am the exact opposite of centered. I feel like shit. I woke up okay. Then life hit. Do you ever have days so unexplainabley bad that you think you are genuinely going insane? I feel like that today. Nothing was different. No new bad luck had been put upon … Continue reading Centered
Are we, we are the waiting unknown. I haaaaaaate waiting. (The use of a letter more than once obviously indicates a drawn out word with eye rolling as an accompaniment.) I do however love Greenday. Their newer music doesn't really speak to me the same. I'm not cussing them up, they just adapted with the … Continue reading Are we, we are…
What? Song lyrics again. Sorry, not sorry. Front porch step are legends with words. This song is the best song to listen to on a day like today. I'm angry, I'm fed up and I just cannot be with myself. Do you ever get that? I know I have made a lot of mistakes, I'm trying to … Continue reading Making friends with cement.
If you haven't already grab yourself a pair of speakers and listen to Less Than Jake- Science of selling yourself short. That is an order. Okay done? Well now your life is slightly more enriched, let's get down to business. What the hell is wrong with me?? This song speaks to me because I am … Continue reading I’m my own worst enemy.
Music. It calms and excites. It can change the way you feel. If anyone reads my blog they may notice certain phrases that are familiar. I think in lyrics. Does anybody else do that? I don't mean every sentence I think is lyrical. Just seventy percent of my thoughts have a lyrical reference or remind … Continue reading Wax Lyrical.
Sometimes there are days that are not really worthy of being days at all. Sometimes you have days you would rather forget and sometimes, if you're lucky, you get a day that is just so sublime you wish it would last forever. Naturally it doesn't, every day is by the rule only 24 hours long, … Continue reading When we were young.
So I'm told. Hope comes from strange places blah blah blah. Personally I have always thought that to be utter ... nonsense, to put it politely. My recent self realization...thing however has begun to make me wonder if there isn't just the teeensiest bit of truth in the happy clappy mumbo jumbo. Maybe some people … Continue reading Everything happens for a reason.
8697 days. Breathing, eating, sleeping but not really living. 23 years of wasted life. Don't get me wrong I have some awesome memories. In the grand scheme of things however I'm a loser baby, so why don't you kill me. I mean when you think of all there is to see, to make, to try … Continue reading Awakening.