Please just let me go. I started a new job which I thought was good. It's a training program so I learn and earn. It's at a pub. I liked the first day or two. The location itself is now tainted . I can't go there without hyperventilating. I think I am genuinely insane. My … Continue reading I’m coming apart at the seams.
I don't know why I am alive No one really cares Somehow i'll survive They look straight through me Instead of seeing me they see you No one knows me Can't say I didn't try They don't even try. Daily Prompt: Instinct
So I am almost 24. However I don't think this will bring me more friends. I seem to be unlovable. I honestly don't know if it's me or if it's just the people I mix with. Obviously people drift away over the years. I was homeschooled so I didn't make any friends during high school … Continue reading Nobody likes you when your 23.
So, today is the day. The day my brother took his own life. He hung himself on his bed, with a computer lead. Does it affect me? Everyday. It's not something that just passes. It eases; the pain. He called me on the wednesday and asked to move in. Come the sunday I was sat … Continue reading Happy Death Day
via Daily Prompt: Center Today I am the exact opposite of centered. I feel like shit. I woke up okay. Then life hit. Do you ever have days so unexplainabley bad that you think you are genuinely going insane? I feel like that today. Nothing was different. No new bad luck had been put upon … Continue reading Centered
Are we, we are the waiting unknown. I haaaaaaate waiting. (The use of a letter more than once obviously indicates a drawn out word with eye rolling as an accompaniment.) I do however love Greenday. Their newer music doesn't really speak to me the same. I'm not cussing them up, they just adapted with the … Continue reading Are we, we are…
I have been baking more recently. Do you like baking? I find it quite therapeutic when I'm stressed. I enjoy eating the baked goods too but I could happily just bake them all for other people. I enjoy the stability. Simple ingredients that always come together well. It's like watching a film you have already … Continue reading Baked.
What? Song lyrics again. Sorry, not sorry. Front porch step are legends with words. This song is the best song to listen to on a day like today. I'm angry, I'm fed up and I just cannot be with myself. Do you ever get that? I know I have made a lot of mistakes, I'm trying to … Continue reading Making friends with cement.
If you haven't already grab yourself a pair of speakers and listen to Less Than Jake- Science of selling yourself short. That is an order. Okay done? Well now your life is slightly more enriched, let's get down to business. What the hell is wrong with me?? This song speaks to me because I am … Continue reading I’m my own worst enemy.
So I was sat in the garden having a smoke with my OH when I realised, he says some funny shit. Sometimes it baffles me. It's so ridiculous. Other times it just makes me chuckle. Every once in a while though he makes me laugh so hard my sides hurt I sit there clapping like … Continue reading That’s what he said.